Initiating an inner sanctuary
Each spiritual Initiation is a matter of ‘receiving’; spiritual development is essentially discovering how psychological to open in order to free from the gravitational forces of the Matrix.
Essentially the direction of our path in life, our life’s program, comes from deep within, from the unconsciousness. The motivations and intentions that propel us through life lie in this, for a great deal hidden, part of the personality.
Superficially striving for growth and active acquiring of knowledge forms the personality. In energetic sense the personality is a composed energetic field and superficially ‘formed’ from the outside in through upbringing, education and following people or trends. And to a certain extend also formed through spiritual/religious education and by following spiritual/religious teachers. They can point out the way. The ‘receiving mode’ however, can only be found within oneself.
Initiation of the inner sanctuary is by ‘receiving’. Unto the deepest and darkest levels of the psyche it is the personality (and all of her mechanisms) that block and prevent reception. The main -Matrix- barrier making a full reconnection with the Soul impossible lies in the deepest levels of the psyche.
The artificial ego
The individual Soul-searcher eventually comes in contact with his or her archaic remains, a complex composite energetic field that is within the deeper (older) layers of the psyche, it is the basis of an artificial part of the self.
Basically the artificial ego is an inner Idol, an Archetype, a psychological projection of an image of spiritual mastery and can be of any spiritual or religious origin.
In energetic sense, the image is loaded with a complex collection of spiritual concepts (including dogma’s) and very deep feelings that reflect how we appreciate our spiritual or religious disposition and development.
When we get to ‘know’ our own inner Idol we usually are deeply impressed. Our own Idol can be recognized through reflection of the Inner Idol of an advanced spiritual individual. There may be intense or even life-changing feelings and we may very easily become under its spell; the nature of an inner Idol is charismatic, alluring, hypnotic and highly addictive.
Our main driving factor for living, choosing, acting and creating is in the depths of our (primal) psyche. If we forget that we only play a role to provide livelihood, and fully identify with the image then from our own perspective we become the Idol and get stuck in the spell.
The inner Idol projection can ‘grow’ into such enormous (Mythical) proportions that we may start to believe we have become God Himself.
The artificial ego is connected to the instincts of spiritual self-preservation. Spiritual self-preservation equals urges of physical survival; we have become the Idol and when we loose that status, we loose our self. Once under the spell of an Idol, the ambition may ignite a true mythical clash between rivals within spiritual or religious circles.
This psychological mechanism stirs latent spiritual ambition; we cannot accept ourselves as we are. Instead we can crave as spiritually developed or even as ‘Master’ to be recognized. Within groups of people or even within groups of kindred spirits the artificial ego brings discrimination and inequality.
Identification with the artificial Ego forms the deepest root in the energetic Matrix Field to overcome. The artificial ego is the last and main barrier that is between the Matrix and the freedom of the Soul, and also the main cause of rivalry between peoples of different religious and spiritual origin.
Recommendations for coalesce with the Soul. Aligning and purging the receiving ‘mode’.
Within the depths of our psyche are two opposite desires: one desire to differentiate or even to outshine in spiritual mastery, and one desire to connect, or even coalesce to become One (with ‘God’). These two desires radiate craving energies each originating from opposite sources; they either attract towards the gravitational forces of the Matrix, or towards the ultimate subtle energies of the Soul.
Scrutinize intentions and motivations; do they arise from ambition to outshine in some way in spirituality, or do they arise from love for the One Spiritual Unity?
Be completely honest with yourself and remove those rose-colored glasses with all supposed good intentions of bringing Love, and Light to the world.
Learn to be a caring, patient and forgiving (inner) parent for yourself and learn to be profoundly present (centered) within your own being.
Align your focus. While diving deeper inside, you will approach profound instincts of psychological archetypal survival and psychological ‘forces’ will increase in strength and tenacity! One may need to remember on a daily basis it is the psyche that tends to divide and separate into a hierarchical order, while the individual Soul and the group Soul are one and the same; any object or space can be loaded with the thought-energy of ‘Unity through equality, fellowship and freedom of the Soul’ and be used as a remembrance anchor.
Work towards energetic balance in the chakras and chakra system, and self-knowledge through meditation and by developing a calm conscious and intuitive presence in every moment.
Be conscious of the facts that ‘coalescing with the Soul’ comes from free will and from positive ‘Soul-approaching’ choices. Inner resisting and fighting “against” will only strengthen the inner blockades. All energies that may hinder you in any way are inside yourself; they are reflected in the energetic fields of other people. Just accept that your hindrances proclaim their presence to you.
Kirsten de Groot