Dear readers,

This is the very last post on this blog site and the reason is, that a new website is in the making. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love to write about the spirituality of the Soul and the Path of the Soul! However, the combination of writing a coherent post and remaining in receptive intuitive tranquility is challenging in itself, let alone for even two sites or blogs.

Thank you for visiting how 2 proceed spiritual enlightenment and welcome to the new site that is still in a building up phase: Beyond Gravity on

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The unnatural yearn

Ask anyone how you can merge with God, and they won’t know what to answer. Yearning for God is unnatural because it a signal that is not of this world and that makes it highly spiritual. Yes, Yearning for God is a signal from beyond!

With spiritual development and spiritual growth, you probably think of acquiring. Of getting ‘more’ and ‘better’, ‘greater’, further. Expanding consciousness, however, goes hand in hand with letting go and sacrifice. Giving up beliefs, and contrary to what we may suppose, replacing with inner silence and emptiness. All beliefs about the spiritual world, religion, and “life and death,” actually are created by man. Just let go and give up. Try to keep an open mind and observe and see that they are really “beliefs” that are stuck in your system.

The expansion of consciousness comes with a sacrifice. In worldly eyes, the deep yearning to flow into the All or the desire for Oneness with God is an unnatural desire that contradicts the total reality in which we live. Some even believe that Oneness with God is only realized when one crosses the lifeline, into death, “Going to Heaven.”

Uncharted territory

Desiring a union with God is an extraordinary desire. It is a deep feeling that arises from the depths of the Soul, a transcendent part of the human being, which is also a completely uncharted territory to most people, even to the vast majority of spiritual counselors and mental health therapists. Matters of deep spirituality, the Spiritual Soul, and Kundalini energy which is spiritual energy, are profoundly unknown in common health care but also in religious and spiritual institutions. The unnatural desire is not a pathological deviation, it is an unfathomable deep desire of the Soul to be freed from the gravity of the world.

“Soul-searching” and following the yearning of the Soul is not quite the same. Soul-searching is primarily done to get to ‘know’ how to nourish your ‘Soul’ for better spiritual well-being. While the signal of the yearning of the Soul directs one to the awareness of merging with God. These are quite distinctive differences!

Don’t get me wrong, taking care of your spiritual well-being is very important. The yearning signal however is a profound spiritual signal and following this signal is serving the Soul in a spiritual sense.
What one does for one’s own Soul is done for all Souls; the Individual Soul and the Over-Soul are one and the same and that means that merging with God is a spiritual service for all mankind.


Trusting God

Response to the desire

Are you afraid that you will lose your spirituality, your connection with God, or that you will be forsaken by God? In a hectic world with different religious objectives, it is sometimes not easy to determine your direction and keep your focus. What does God, or the highest spiritual authority imaginable, want me to do?

Virtually all people have the desire for closeness and intimacy. However, sometimes that desire is so profound that we realize that nothing or no one can ever fulfill this desire. This profound yearning is then a spiritual Call to become “One” with the Creator, with God or the All.

It is the Soul that longs for the Home from which it comes. Initially the personality cannot grasp this at first, but once the divine desire is deeply understood, you will turn to the inner life and let all outer things pass by. Knowing your intention is knowing your direction.


26 Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? 28 “So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; 29 and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Matt. 6:26-30


God can never let us go. We are the ones who leave God.


Creation of Duality?

The Biblical Genesis from a holistic view.

Did Eva create duality by taking an apple from the forbidden tree of the knowledge of good and evil? Well, by making a mental choice she could indeed have done that! Some aspects of the Creation story are viewed in this blog from a new holistic esoteric perspective.

The Creation story in the Bible is certainly an exceptional writing, but it is also a source of suggestion and manipulation that has also ensured that the woman was given a subordinate rank compared to the man and sometimes a downright inferior status with regard to religion. Why is it God the “Father”? Or Father, Son and Holy Spirit, twice clearly male? The inequality between man and woman does not fit into a holistic and esoteric perspective, but what if Adam and Eve, the very first created humans, represent universal parameters and not individuals?

Genesis is the first chapter / book in the Bible that describes the Creation of man. Genesis (Origin) tells of Adam and Eve being expelled from Paradise because they have been disobedient (to God). A snake in a tree tempts Eve to take an apple from the forbidden tree. She offers the apple to Adam. Adam is seduced by the apple. Some think this story is about literal disobedience to God (and to the man), and blame it on Eve’s (on the woman) temptation tactics that Humanity is now plunged into duality and sin.


Genesis of Yang and Yin

Suppose Adam and Eve represent the universal male and female, what could the Creation story have to say?

Yin and Yang are names for universal feminine energy and masculine energy. The Yin / Yang symbol is a circle with a black and a white field in curved teardrop shapes that fit together with contrasting dots in them. The two fit perfectly in the circle and leave no room for anything else! The Yin / Yang symbol ‘carries’ meanings of opposite extremes, yet Yin and Yang are completely in harmony with each other and form a unity.

Objectively speaking, each color has as much space as the other color. So in terms of space, Yin and Yang are equal. In terms of color intensity, they are extremes of each other. The color itself, white or black, says something about the quality of their cargo, which is utmost masculine or utmost feminine. Yin is universal feminine negatively charged energy. Yang is universal male positively charged energy. The dots in the opposite color indicate that Yin and Yang always go together and are in a certain ratio to each other.

However, the value of each color and how they both fit together is determined by our own perception and our inner response to it and is subjectively and personally determined. For example, we may hate black or white. Inwardly, the symbol then gets an extra charge through our thoughts and feelings or what we see in the symbol and that has happened to Adam and Eve, they have undergone valuations.

Yang, Adam, was created first. Yin, Eva, was taken from the “middle” of Yang, a “rib”. A rib is a horizontal bone that lies in the standing human body at the height of the waist, in the middle. The standing person forms a “One,” a vertical Axis (1) and the rib is a horizontal Axis (earth and water) that crosses the center of the 1. A cross is created that often symbolizes “burden” and “karma,” the earthly reality; this cross also has a center.

In reality, the positive and negative poles cannot have arisen independently of each other, but may have originated together and simultaneously from Singularity. Yin and Yang as a two-unit is the first form of two-pole consciousness. This is a two-pole charged energetic Field that is part of the Singularity and can be called the Christ Consciousness. Singularity is symbolized by the circle around the Yin-Yang symbol.

Singularity is One and 1 is male. From that Singularity Yin and Yang arise, a two-unit, in human terms the “Son”. The two-unit Yin and Yang is the first (1) and most basic form of Man, male and female energies, from this two-pole energetic unit (universal Life energy), Creation can (philosophically) arise. “I and the Father are One,” John. 10:30

Adam and Eve are Yang and Yin in the earth plane. The fact that Adam was created first in the story means that he represents the universally masculine Action and Eve then the universally feminine Inertia. Adam and Eve together form a cross consisting of a vertical Axis and a horizontal Axis, the four elements, vertices or four cardinal points of Earth’s reality. Fire and air are the male positive elements of the vertical Axis. Water and Earth are the feminine negative elements of the horizontal Axis.

If Adam and Eve represent the universally masculine and feminine in the terrestrial plane, what would that say about the serpent and the apple by which they are each attracted and seduced? The snake is in a tree (air). The apple is the fruit of the earth. The negatively charged feminine is attracted to the positively charged ‘spiritual, mental, passionate (air and fire). The positively charged male is attracted to the negatively charged appearance and inner (psyche) of the earthly form (water and earth).

Consciousness is energy and can have a charge and an orientation. We (realize that we) exist thanks to our self-awareness.

The two trees

It is said about two trees. A tree of Life from which to eat, and a tree of the knowledge of good and evil from which they may not eat. Suppose these trees symbolize the spine and the endocrine gland system with its energetic chakra nodes and energetic radiation field. By eating from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, we try to mentally determine what our endocrine gland system, the carrier of our psyche, needs by choosing between good and evil. Do not judge. Eating from the tree of Life is using the intuition and unconditionally bringing the chakras into a subtle energetic balance; the tree of living water, universal life energy.

The trees are in the Earth. The physical body of flesh and blood, the psyche and the Soul of both men and women are negatively charged. The Spirit is positively charged. Spirit and Soul attract each other.

The Fall

By choosing intuitively, we are connected in and with Unity. By making a mental choice we choose duality. Man chooses mentally and as a result we lose innocence; we distinguish and judge with that.

Thanks to our self-awareness, we ourselves are the Creators of duality. If we don’t have a choice, we accept what is available. With a choice we will consider which choice is better suited for us, has more value and this is partly determined by what we consciously, but certainly also unconsciously desire.

Our biggest stumbling block is that we have a desire-driven automatic-mental reaction of comparing, classifying and judging.

The fig leaf

The fig leaf serves to hide the differences between men and women in an effort to preserve Unity; men and women are equal to each other. All the rituals, ancient surviving and brand new that we now perform are still attempts at this, the preservation of Oneness.

The fratricide

Cain and Abel are the sons of Adam and Eve as the mental duality. Double (2 X) Yang is a surplus of Yang energy and that evokes extreme spiritual ambition, jealousy and rivalry. Mental duality brings nothing but evil and crime against Unity, the Oneness. Mental duality breaks Unity; it is SIN. Archetypes are the psychological progeny of mental duality.

Why were universal ‘parameters’ personified?

Creation stories are usually ancient stories full of symbolism about the origin of man and perhaps they were originally only intended for spiritual Adepts who were allowed to go in the path of initiation.  You could imagine that they were initially passed down orally from High Priest to High Priest and that they were eventually written down and have undergone several translations and thus also changes.



The greatest spiritual challenge

The greatest challenge for all spiritual seekers and not only spiritual teachers and therapists, is to find a 100% commitment to spiritual development without any intention; developing an inner attitude of Wu Wei; an inner quality of self-forgetfulness.

Ambition must be converted into dedication or Love. Do your best to no longer do your best and still be fully focused on getting hold of a meditative presence in every moment. Initially, this requires constant awareness of what thoughts are running through your head, and of your grounding and centering.

The second major challenge for all spiritual teachers is to make their students independent of them! Inspire students to a greater spiritual autonomy and authenticity and how they can transform ambition into dedication, teach them to shift the leading role of Solar Plexus to their own Heart Center. The condition is that you as a spiritual teacher have mastered the inner quality of Wu Wei, otherwise you do not know what it is about.

Spiritual Enlightenment can be done in an instant. Finding self-forgetfulness is all the more difficult, the ‘I’ keeps popping up and suppression of the ‘I’ thought will only reinforce the need for control and encourage self-manipulation and self-deception.

If a nice title is promised when taking a course, finding motivation is easy. If there is nothing with which we can achieve tangible results in this society, it is a lot more difficult.

Our problem is that our minds are stuck in cultural and social structures and statuses and that we have to make a living. However, complete dedication to spiritual development is possible in all circumstances, in all professions and during all activities.

In the course of our personal evolution, we have become status sensitive in the deepest psychic layers, and that is still troubling us today.

When Holy Fire turns into sheer ambition; Intoxication by spiritual Fire.

Quote from the Gospel of Thomas:

13 Jesus said to his disciples, “Compare me to something and tell me what I am like.”

Simon Peter said to him, “You are like a just messenger.”

Matthew said to him, “You are like a wise philosopher.”

Thomas said to him, “Teacher, my mouth is utterly unable to say what you are like.”

Jesus said, “I am not your teacher. Because you have drunk, you have become intoxicated from the bubbling spring that I have tended.”

And he took him, and withdrew, and spoke three sayings to him. When Thomas came back to his friends, they asked him, “What did Jesus say to you?”

Thomas said to them, “If I tell you one of the sayings, he spoke to me, you will pick up rocks and stone me, and fire will come from the rocks and devour you.”

Translation; Patterson and Meyer

Spiritual enlightenment is a phase in spiritual development. However, it brings exciting and exuberant feelings that can distract someone from one’s own spiritual development. They arouse the ambition to develop the newly acquired insights into society.

Spiritual Fire is a by-product of spiritual Enlightenment, it “kindles” in our being through a conversion of universal life energy into spiritual Fire; Chi or Prana becomes Kundalini and is body-bound.

Spiritual Fire is absent from our world, it only* exists within a human being with an awakened heart. We are not used to the physical and emotional sensations that the energy of spiritual fire brings with it; at first our ability to judge becomes intoxicated. In our excessively Yang-laden society, Spiritual Fire can easily turn into feelings of intense ambition and a need for spiritual status.

Letting go of the outer teacher.

All of humanity is between two great Eras, that of Pisces and of Aquarius. As it were, we are on the threshold to take the next steps in spiritual development, namely, to learn to ‘walk’ freely from outer spiritual guides and to trust in the inner teacher, the inner Mentor and that involves trial and error.

Letting go of the outer Teacher and of our ‘role’ as a spiritual Teacher is a process of developing spiritual confidence and letting go of all spiritual meaning. Status and meaning are man-designed things to serve as a beacon when we really needed it as Humanity. Letting go however is easier said than done, we have been profoundly and widespread moulded by our society and religious and spiritual culture. 

Now we have turned spirituality into a product and isolated it from a continuation of personal development. In principle, you do not need external spiritual guidance that follows and if necessary, adjusts your spiritual awakening and development process. It is the personality that wants to be encouraged and be seen. We are created as a unity and everything we need for our spiritual development is within ourselves, we only need to find an inner drive to inwardly moving on in our intuitive and meditative evolvement.

An awakened heart can develop into an inner Mentor. Internally we need to make a transition to unconditionality, intuitive and spiritual development for no specific purpose and propelled by a dedication, Love, to unlocking the inner source and that implies a dedication to a growing spiritual autonomy and authenticity. Wu Wei or “Do without any intention”.

A second major challenge for all spiritual teachers is to encourage their students and followers to learn to stand on their own spiritual feet; stimulating spiritual autonomy and authenticity! In my experience the most important message that a teacher can give to his or her students is that the ‘source’ is present in each of us and that it needs to be found by ourselves. A teacher can only indicate, not lead.

Spiritual self-confidence and ” Do without any intention ” are inner attitudes, which grow through dedication to intuitive development, a receptive meditative presence and awareness in every moment. This attitude of sheer devotion develops spiritual intimacy within us, a most fulfilling inner closeness with the spiritual Soul.

Kirsten May 2020